A long awaited and very rushed update

I was reading over a page in my “Wreck this Journal” (pictures and progress to be coming once I get home from work) which happened to be a page for angry thoughts… and I just laughed at myself. Which was refreshing and relieving. It’s nice to know that I can still occasionally look back at myself and look at something which is a very serious issue to me, and just piss myself laughing at my emo and self-centred manner of expressing it. Had Amy been reading it, she would have flicked me on the ear REPEATEDLY (she knows what I mean )

So I’m sitting here thinking, okay things suck a bit. I’m in a rut, I’m losing friends and I’m none too happy with the fact that I’ve barely had any time to do anything other than uni and work. And then I smack myself in the face and go “Okay! Snap out of it!”
It’s time to whack on a pair of heels and that one dress you don’t hate yourself in and hit the freaking town and FORCE yourself to enjoy it. Fortunately I have just such an opportunity this weekend… twice!
I can sit here and I can bitch and moan that I don’t like who you’ve become, or who I’ve become, or I can just do what I should have done a long time ago and SUCK IT UP, get dressed up and MAKE myself feel good about me.
Cos I’m tired of waking up with the first thought in my head being “get out of bed you fat lazy sack of crap”.
We’re all over the low self esteem bit. Me most of all.

And so I end this update for now, given that I have to rush off to (surprise surprise) work. When I get home, if I remember, I’ll whack some pics up.

Peaceout!
xox