Not the greatest way to start

What were the odds that the first update I had to make in keeping with my regular updates would leave me with nothing positive to say? XD nothing serious. Just been a crappy couple of days…
I’m currently really mad. Like quite seriously mad. And not like in a petty way, but in an incredibly frustrated sick of watching people I care about hurt themselves kind of thing. Blaaaaaaaargh. And in a more petty way, mum is yelling at me in the background which is giving me a headache XD
Work is rapidly making me lose my faith in humanity. I feel I must get a new job before I become a people-hater. By that I mean racist against ALL races lmao.

Bleh don’t know what else to say.
Tomorrow should be better. Getting live at monarto tickets here’s hoping.

Going to start regular updates… or going to try

That’s right! You read the title correctly. I am actually going to make a solid attempt at getting off my butt and trying to keep this updated. Why you may ask? Well I don’t really have a decent answer to that. More than anything just because I feel like it, and because for ONCE I don’t feel whiney so perhaps this might actually be the kind of blog I always intended it to be.

Namely one that doesn’t sound like it was written by a 14 year old emo Steph

Wow. I just realised I’m wearing a towel. How did I not notice that?

Aaaanyway…
So. Steph’s world. What can I tell you?
Things are finally looking up. I finally feel like a normal human being with normal emotions and normal reactions.
Although still not zombified. Still totally capable of flying off the handles and being ridiculously intense it’s lovely. I’m so pleased. I shall treasure it while it lasts.
I finally broke out of my rut a bit too. I’ve been going out and doing things, meeting new people and volunteering and just generally being alive. Flashdance on Wednesday was absolutely awesome. Probably my second best ever night out. Maybe even my best, it was just so fun. I spent about half of it loving the company of some of my awesome friends, and the other half with some random guy who never bothered to ask my name but treated me like a princess anyway (hard to believe huh?). And shite could he dance O_O all who know me know that I hate to dance. I didn’t really get much of a choice! He tried to teach me and just generally ignored it when I screwed up, but omg it was SO MUCH FUN. I never thought I’d have fun doing something like that – but I guess knowing I’d never see him again made it a bit easier to not be self conscious about how I looked or how sweaty I was plus he didn’t care. He wasn’t in it for the hookup, he just wanted someone to dance with and have some fun. It was great – I wish I’d thanked him at the end of the night.
Other than that I spent Tuesday at a training day for uni, which was actually… great! The training itself was all the sort of crap I covered during peer mediation in high school (huh I forgot I’d been considered a part of that. Forgot to include it on my list of stuff to give to Campbell at the end of Year 12 – d’oh!) but I got a chance to get to know a couple of the girls from uni a lot better, which was great. I’ve been making more of an effort and it’s just so nice to feel like I’ve finally got some friends at uni XD (as in within my course )
What else…? Hmmm… met Ross, who was hilarious. Had Lewis over on Monday, which scored me a judgmental glare from my mother. Went to gym and worked so hard I threw up, then went to gym again and worked so hard with Heather that my arms hurt too much to really hold the steering wheel whilst driving home woo! I’m sure I did much more than this but it’s 1am and my brain refuses to function. The point is that I actually have something to write other than “felt like crap, stayed in my room all week” which is my usual byline.

I’ve planned some stuff to keep the year interesting. Going to birds of Tokyo with Amy and Mez, going to Live At Monarto (but staying in murray bridge) with Amy also starting volunteering with the animal welfare league around april (so excited!). The house will be built around June, so very much looking forward to that. PARENTS ARE GOING AWAY FOR FIVE WEEKS! Scoooore! I even organised for Adam to house sit my Uncle’s place (he’s going with them, and it was easier for me to stay at OUR house because work is about five minutes away) so I DON’T HAVE TO LIVE WITH HIM EITHER! House to myself. Pure bliss. Someone better come over and cook for me lest I accidentally burn down the house I also want to see if I can visit Pete again sometime in the holidays – though probably for a much shorter time as my bank balance ached last time Saving for Canada too, which SHOULD be happening in February ‘11. Here’s hoping! Also doing some stuff with uni – more leadership stuff (well, “mentoring”, but they’ve decided they don’t like that word) which should be really cool. Giving a couple of speeches next week, though have no idea what I’m going to say XD “well I hated uni till about a week ago… so uh… yeah… enjoy!” – I also found out about On Dit, the uni newspaper. And found out how to write for it… I am totally going to try to do that as often as I can. I don’t care if they don’t publish me, I just need the practice. And I think it’d be so damn cool to see my name in print (even if anyone could )
Really only thing that could make life better right now would be for Andrew to reappear from his disappearance oh lord I’m pathetic. -facepalm-
I think you should all be thoroughly amazed with me right now A couple of months ago I wouldn’t have bothered to organise a damn thing. I wouldn’t have even thought I’d be around for it.

So that’s about it for now really I had the shift from hell at work today, and have another fun-filled shift to look forward to tomorrow. At least on Sunday I should be seeing Tom, so the weekend won’t be a total bust. And Lewis said he’d come around tomorrow if he could find the time, so who knows. Might actually be a good weekend.
Either way, with all that in mind, I need to sleep.

Goodnight and stay tuned. I WILL actually update this!

Late again

For the past few days I have been, as Nat would so well put it, “cracking the sads”. I couldn’t tell you why – I just haven’t felt particularly good about life in general. Ah what an emo kid I am but in all seriousness, it’s fair shit.

I haven’t been up to a great deal the past couple of days. I’ve been working until very early hours of the morning and sleeping till very late hours in the afternoon as a result. This morning I had decided I might see if Lewis was busy in the morning as I rather felt the need to see a friendly face. However, as per usual with me, when my alarm went off at a time earlier than I’m used to getting up, I really couldn’t find the strength to get out of bed so simply went back to sleep. But joy of joys! All was not lost. Evidently Lewis read my mind, because when I woke up (somewhere around 12:45pm >_<; ) I had a message from him asking if I wanted a visitor. Granted I started work early and he was a good hour or so off, but it was really great to see him despite the short amount of time and it made me feel a HELL of a lot better about needing to go to work. I think I woulda been in the pissiest mood known to man kind for the entire 8 hours if I hadn’t seen him. Instead, I was overly cheerful

Work was as to be expected – namely insanely busy. Without Kathleen and Jerald there (they’re on holidays), I am (apparently) the fastest maker there. That doesn’t count for much when I’m still half as quick as either of them and we’re INSANELY busy because of the long weekend. Fortunately it died towards the end of the night, so we managed to get the dough done by 12, so I was out by 12:35 this is a nice change from the norm of 2am. The plus side is, of course, that across the past two weeks I’ve made a fair bit of money so hopefully I’ll be able to pay it back into my savings account like I’ve wanted to for ages (I’m about $700 down). It won’t be ALL that I need to put back in there but it’s a start.

Oh and since I missed the update, I should also add that on Wednesday night Elyse cooked up a storm for us under guise of a girl’s night. I haven’t had that good of a feed in… well I can’t really remember the last time. It was awesome!

Well I’m out of things to say and am becoming more and more conscious that I should go to bed (not that I will – I’m hungry. I’m going to have to find a way to get food without waking Adam and Shannan). So on that note, goodnight!